Of course it hurts like crazy when I think of how much I will miss her. But those are selfish thoughts, really. I mean, if God wants to take her home, I should be happy for her, not sad for me. I can cherish all the amazing memories we have, and be thankful that I have a mom like her in the first place.
You're right, sis, your mom's life is in God's hands, just like yours is. In Matthew 6, Jesus tells us there's no point in worrying. He says in verse 27, "Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?" (And I'd add, "to your mom's life?") You might want to check out the whole chapter. Another great passage is Philippians 4:6-9:
"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you."
Remember: Our emotions (including worry and fear) stem from the thoughts we think. So when you catch yourself thinking about losing your mom, pray instead, asking God to help you fix your thoughts on what is true (that you have an amazing mom who is, at least for today, with you).
I'll be praying that God gives you the peace that I've found, enabling you to enjoy the time you have on this earth with your mom. But also completely wrap yourself in God so that when the day comes for her to go "home," you'll still be able to smile.
Much love,
